There's a kind of solace in rest, even if you're lying down with a heart that feels okay, but your mind refuses to shut the window to the noise. The kind of noise that doesn't shout but hums, lingers, whispers, hovers—keeping your eyes wide open when all you want is to close the curtains.

It's like living in two worlds: one where you’re someone in the daylight, and another where, at night, you shine the most.

Maybe, in the quiet of the night, you can make art out of the noise in your head. It might seem chaotic, even crazy, but that’s where the magic lies—turning the whispers into something uniquely yours. Another day is just a blank canvas, or perhaps a continuation of a brushstroke you started long ago. Maybe it feels like a routine—just a pattern you follow—until, one day, the spark returns, and suddenly, it all makes sense again.

But the thing is, sparks can die out, and it takes time to find another. Maybe someone will hand it to you, or you’ll stumble upon it yourself. Or perhaps, in desperation, you’ll take the short end of the stick and try to buy it from somewhere else. Hands trembling, you think you’ve got it—but deep down, it feels like a rabbit hole, pulling you further away instead of closer to the light.

Once you think you’ve climbed out of the rabbit hole, you find yourself back where you started—your bed, the open window, the words swirling like restless birds, and the curtain straining against a quiet, thoughtless wind that refuses to let it close.

Of course, it’s important to look back at the past, find the problems, and reflect. Find the areas of improvement, because that’s when you finally have the strength to close the windows with your bare hands. The reflection of you in the glass, the words that once swirled around—disappearing. And just like that, the curtains were never there in the first place.

It’s okay that things repeat, even after all these years. There will be those who don’t understand, but there will always be those who do. The ones who manage to get out of the rabbit hole and have no issue closing the window.

It’s your life, so be gentle with yourself. Close your eyes and get some sleep.

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