i don't have the mind to write something poetic or lyrical, nor you deserve it from me. you know what's weird? im not even giving you too much, i stopped doing it that day when i wrote more than a thousand characters to express my feelings, but you replied with less than a quarter of what i wrote. you said you were tired, exhausted, whatever the fuck you said, you even said that it's alright for you if i choose to go or take some time away from your life. what kind of friend says that? a friend that doesn't really mind if you leave. it hurts a lot when i give a fuckton of me, of love and affection to somebody who just doesn't really care, knowing damn well i should make you leave out of my life because you're hurting me more than you ever helped me. your mother likes me more than you do, your grandmother too as well as your cousin, your uncle and your stepfather. what did i do wrong? that day you fucking replaced me, not a sight of blame in your voice or your texts. you invited me to an event on a place, i said yes, that day you said "i don't know if im going" because you were sleepy (what a damn surprise), so i offered other ways to hang out like me going to your house or someplace closer to it. you said later that you were going to that place with a friend you met a week ago. i don't have a problem with you having friends, but i have a big problem if you ought to replace me that way and act like nothing happened. do you like him?? he's prettier than me, that's for sure. he's cuter as well, i get it. what i don't get is your way to act towards me, a man who gave you everything and more because that man loves you. why i love you? i don't even know. i thought that maybe im in love with you or something like that, but i don't even like the idea of us together in any couple terms, so that's not the reason. i might have a dependency because im a dumb fuck who gets attached with people who don't give a shit about me, and tries to make that people give the same as me by giving even more. why are you more interested on him than on me? is it because you feel more comfortable? then what did i do to make you feel not that comfortable? was it touching your boobs even though you like it? is it that i look like a creep? sorry for not changing things i cant fucking change then, like my face. my question stays the same. what did i do wrong and i am doing wrong? because you know damn well im hurting and you don't give a fuck about it, you just don't care about me even though i care for you and love you more than any friend.